"I Didn't Want To Live" Kevin Gates Reveals Childhood Assault In Emotional Interview (VIDEO)
Kevin Gates Sh*t Himself In The Head In 2020: “Crying for help.”
— Club Shay Shay (@ClubShayShay) January 29, 2026
"I was so depressed, I just needed something to cope. I didn't want to live. Unc, I done sh*t myself in the head before, I got a bullet in my head Unc. I ain't wanna live, I was f*cked up."- @iamkevingates pic.twitter.com/2tS2XLYTjj
">Kevin Gates delivered one of his most raw and personal interviews to date during a recent appearance on Club Shay Shay, opening up about a traumatic childhood assault that he says shaped much of his life and behavior.
During the January 28 episode, the Baton Rouge rapper revealed that he was assaulted as a teenager inside his mother’s home. What hurt just as deeply, Gates shared, was that his mother initially did not believe him. That moment of disbelief stayed with him for years and fueled unresolved pain that later showed up as anger and violence in his adulthood.
Gates admitted that for a long time he did not understand how deeply the experience affected him. Looking back now, he says the trauma influenced many of his past actions and relationships. Still, he emphasized that confronting it has helped him break generational cycles. He explained that he now teaches his children to speak up, trust themselves, and never stay silent when something feels wrong.
The interview went beyond the assault. Gates also discussed a childhood premonition that he believes foreshadowed parts of his life, defended a TikTok creator facing public backlash over her divorce, and rejected what he called rap’s growing anti streets messaging. Throughout the conversation, he returned to themes of accountability, healing, and growth.
Now sober and grounded in faith, Gates said his focus is no longer survival but peace. He credited spirituality, family, and self reflection for helping him reach a place of happiness he once thought was impossible.
Fans praised the rapper for his honesty, calling the interview powerful and necessary. For many, it showed a side of Kevin Gates rarely seen, not just an artist, but a man choosing healing over silence.